The Rev. Casey dunsworth

serves as Associate Campus Pastor to the Belfry, the Lutheran-Episcopal Campus Ministry to UC Davis

and as Program Director for LEVN, the Lutheran Episcopal Volunteer Network.

"Jesus, Are You Real?" Mason Jennings.

Jesus, are you real? Or did we make you up?

All I do is doubt you, God.
All I do is love you, God.
All I do is question you.
What else can I do?
The world was never solid ground; the past is coming back around.
All I do is search for you.
What else can I do?
And when I say I search for you, I mean I search for peace, I search for hope, I search for love, and, one day, for release.
Jesus, my life does not feel the same.
New things happen every day, things I can't explain.
But I am not a man of faith, I'm a man of truth.
But is this feeling in my heart, is this feeling proof?

When you do not know, you know.
And when you know, you do not know.
And when you think you do, you die.
And when you do not think, you grow.

Are we left here in the dark?
Or are we left here in the light?
It seems to me that both are true, and it's up to us to know what's right.
God, give me the strength to accept the things that I just cannot know.
And even when I lose control, I will not let you go.


I just needed this reminder.